Yesterday, had his spring solo recital. He did very well on his violin! Performing in front a crowd is not a very easy thing to do especially when you were up to midnight the night before cleaning up after a party.
Performing is something you think I be used to now. I have been playing for eleven years now on piano so I've always dealt with having solo recitals during Christmas and after Easter. I even perform with my high school band at MPA's, music festivals, marching band competitions, jazz band gigs, etc. I even used to dance for a couple of years. I guess swimming at a swim meet is some what of a performance as well. So, performing should be no big deal right? Not really, I still get nervous. I think as I have become older they way I approach a performance has definitely changed. When I was younger, I was so nervous before the performance. I would shake like crazy. I would just want to get over with it. I was more nervous in the beginning but after I started playing everything was find again. Now as I look at it, my perception of becoming nervous has changed quite some bit. I'm not nervous at the beginning of a performance. Not one bit at all. I can basically start performing a piece with the greatest confidence until I really get into it. For some reason, I become nervous in the middle of my playing. Maybe I might lose my focus or start having weird thoughts in the middle of my piece. I don't know, it's something I've notice it more recently going through college auditions and sorts.
With a performance you only get one shot to perform and show your talents. What a performance truly shows is how well you have prepared for it. In my opinion, it is obvious when you are under prepared for a performance. You all ready become nervous before you perform automatically knowing which parts of the piece are going to need a miracle from heaven above. You might tend to rush the piece just so you can leave it alone. Putting forth in any musicality or expression is hard to do because you are so focused on notes. It might be obvious if you are overprepared as well. The piece might be rushed or sound very robotic. On the other hand, prepare yourself just right and you are on your way to a wonderful performance. I love it when I prepare for my performances just right. I feel like I'm on top of the world. It's obvious when I've perfectly prepared for a performance. My smile is so wide and I can't stop smiling what seems like for days.
As the days continue on I have multiple performances to prepare for. With my high school, we will be preparing for our spring concert, a possible Jazz MPA performance, and jazz band. We are also hosting a spring festival. I'm not completely sure what the Spring Festival is about but I think it's an idea from my band director. I am also preparing for my spring and senior piano recital! I've worked since last year memorizing and rehearsing my repertoire for this very special occasion. I am also rehearsing with my Filipino friends for our 2nd appearance at the International Festival in our town in May.
Time is getting closer and closer for these upcoming performances. Most of them will be in May. I know for sure the first week of May will be the most stressful and hardest week ever. On that week I am preparing for an AP exam, and three additional exams in my college classes. Once that is over, I will be performing at the International Festival and then have fun at prom! I know I can do it though.. All I have to do is prepare and breathe. And breathe again...
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