Saturday, December 8, 2012

The Sound of Music.. In the Mind

So... The names in this article are completely fake.. I did this article for my English college class. Which I surprisingly found out I got an awesome grade on.. I've always had interest of what happens with music and the brain.

Human Mysteries

THE SOUND OF MUSIC.. IN THE MIND

Are people suffering from music hallucinations insane?
"Yet, I knew I wasn't insane. All I had known was that no matter what the music would always come back

~ Ella Lispi

It has probably happened to you before. The catchy song you recently heard on the radio is stuck in your head. It's probably annoyed you hearing it over and over again but it usually disappears from your mind within a few hours. Now imagine the distant tune in your head suddenly became very real. The rhythm of the drums. The strumming of a guitar. The singer's voice. It sounds as if you were attending a concert except your in a room by yourself and there are no external sounds coming from any object. Instead of the tune fading away, it plays in your mind on a daily basis to the point where it is not annoying but frightening. This is what Ella Lispi has experienced daily ever since she was 65 years old. 

Ella is suffering from a mental illness known as music hallucinations. "The music I hear is always there," she says. Music hallucinations are a type of auditory hallucination where a person perceives tunes, melodies and rhythms in the absence of external stimuli. Ella states that the music she commonly hears is music from her childhood. Most of the songs she hallucinates are church hymns and the Beatles. "While the music was annoying at first, it then became frightening. It simply would not leave. I could make it leave temporarily when I was focusing, attending or thinking about other things like reading a book. It was always there though. It's as if there was an elephant in this room. You can do things to pretend the elephant isn't in the room but overall it's still there trunk and all." 

Ella's auditory hallucinations are common in those aged 65 years and older. It is also common for folks around her age to experience sensory deprivation such as hearing loss. "I noticed I had trouble hearing when I was 62 years old when I was trying to talk my son Ben," Ella says, "Then, I was hearing music a couple years later." There is much debate over the brain activity of this involuntary music appearing in the head. While neurologists have determined various triggers for the hallucinations like hearing impairment, they have struggled figuring out what is precisely occurring in a microscopic level. So far researchers know in general that if someone is suffering from music hallucinations due to hearing impairment, they have found that certain neurons are misfiring in the auditory cortex located in the temporal lobe of the brain resulting for people like Ella to experience a never ending iPod stuck in their heads. Learning about Ella's mental illness, Ben, Ella's son, states, "Ella's illness is truly a mystery. I really hope researchers can find more explanations to the music she hears. I think it would help her understand why she is suffering so much. I'd just wish I knew about her condition earlier. She didn't tell me about the music until 5 years later."

The reason that neurologists, psychiatrists, and researchers are struggling to research more about this topic is because there is a lack of awareness about music hallucinations. Ella for example had no knowledge that her mental illness was an actual condition. "I didn't know a doctor could diagnose the music in my mind before I told him about it." There is a lack of awareness about this mental illness because today our society has formed a social stigma surrounding mental illnesses like music hallucinations. "I was scared to come out. I didn't want to see a doctor at first. I didn't want to tell Ben. I felt that what I was experiencing was the characteristics of a psychotic person. Yet, I knew I wasn't insane. All I had known was that no matter what the music would always come back," Ella admits.  Before Ben completely understood Ella's condition he truly thought his mother might have needed hospitalization. He says, "The first time I heard about her hallucinations I thought she was crazy. It explained why she was humming a lot. I thought she was going to be placed in a psychiatric ward for her condition." 

The stigma of mental illness
Why as a society do we automatically label someone with a mental illness like Ella as crazy or insane? Well, one reason is the way doctors have treated the mentally ill historically. From the 1800s to about 1960, the mentally ill received unethical treatments like straitjackets, ice-cold baths, and prefrontal lobotomy as a way to return the mind back to the normal state. These patients were sent to asylums and psychiatric wards isolated from the outside world and stripped of their rights. Their doctors were the ultimate judges to allow a mentally ill patient to return back to society. Also, another reason is the media. The media has told us through television, magazines, and newspaper headlines their opinion of the mentally ill. The media wants society to assume that people with mental illness are violent and crazy. They want society to believe that the mentally ill are a threat to society. As a result of the treatment of the mentally ill historically and the media's view on mental illness, it is commonly viewed even by physicians that hallucinations denote madness. Therefore, there is a social stigma surrounding mental illness and in this case, music hallucinations, that needs to disappear.


This stigma that has surrounded music hallucinations has consequently prevented people like Ella to open up about the music in their mind. Ella's physician Dr. Clayton Hersch states, "I think Ella took so long to tell anyone about her musical experiences because of this social stigma." Thanks to this social stigma, a person may feel scared or embarrassed of what close relatives may think or react about him or her because they hear music in the head.  Also, a person may think that he or she will be sent to the hospital for treatment for hallucinating music. This social stigma surrounding mental illness has not only affected people suffering from music hallucinations but neurologists and researchers continuing to research this mental illness. It is hard to conduct a study about musical hallucinosis when there are not many people seeking for treatment to stop the music because of the social stigma that surrounds mental illness.

Despite what has happened historically with the mentally ill and what the media has claimed, society needs to change its perception about mental illness. Since there is a lack of research on this topic, there is not enough awareness that music hallucinations are an actual mental illness because of the social stigma. As a beginning step, though, neurologists have tried to rename the mental illness from music hallucinations to the Musical Ear Syndrome. People who hallucinate music and doctors like this term better because it does not have a negative connotation like the word hallucination that seems to carry more of an ominous charge. As a result, more people with this condition have been opening but as mentioned it is only a beginning step.
The Musical Ear Syndrom Online Support Group

"It would have been helpful to meet a community of people suffering from the same condition as me," states Ella. If we want even more people to seek treatment for having the Musical Ear Syndrome, creating awareness organizations would be the best way for people to realize that there may be end to the hallucinations. The problem is that there is not one official music hallucination awareness organization in existence. This mental illness should have just as much recognition as other diseases like diabetes or heart disease because many people in the elderly population may be experiencing music hallucinations and may never realize that the music in their mind can be diagnosed. The closest awareness group that can be found is a Musical Ear Syndrome Online Support Form found at mdjunction.com. While this is a good way to show a community of people suffering from music hallucinations, an online forum is not as powerful as an official organization that can make public announcements in various methods like television commercials or social media to raise awareness about the Musical Ear Syndrome.

Since there are no official organizations for those suffering from music hallucinations, we as individuals can do our part by being wary of labeling someone as insane, mad, crazy, or psychotic. Instead of attaching labels, we should be more understanding and suggest a person who may be hallucinating music to visit a doctor. Despite what the media conveys, people suffering from music hallucinations are not crazy. They are not a threat to society. They understand that the music they hear is coming from inside their head. It is important know that people with music hallucinations have a non-psychiatric illness meaning it is not necessary to be treated in a hospital for this condition since they aren't a threat to themselves or other people.

If we as a society do not take the effort to de-stigmatize music hallucinations and mental illness, people suffering from music hallucinations may never receive the treatment they deserve. The treatment doctors that have found to reduce or even eliminate the hallucinations are very simple. In Ella's case a hearing aid was able to reduce the music hallucinations she was hearing. "It's been such a relief for the music to simply disappear with this hearing device. Sleeping has been so much easier. As much as I love my Beatles, its nice not to hear them for once serenading me to sleep," Ella claims. In response to her mother's treatment Ben says, "I never thought the treatment would be so simple. I just wished I would have known about her mental illness sooner, but I guess it's better late than never." Other treatments include various medications. According to a study by Stefan Evers MD/PhD, the most successful medication to stop music hallucinations is called carbamazepine but whether its the best medication is questionable since this study consisted of only 46 case studies of patients suffering from the Musical Ear Syndrome.

We have heard about music hallucinations since the late 18th century. Historically, famous people have be known for suffering music hallucinations like Robert Schumann the German composer from the 19th century who composed the music he hallucinated. It has only been in the last decade that researchers have seriously studied music hallucinations. Researchers have been struggling to learn more about this non-psychiatric illness though because of the social stigma that surrounds music hallucinations and mental illness. As a society, we can help out by de-stigmatizing the stigma and create official awareness organizations about this mental illness. The more we can de-stigmatized music hallucinations, more people affected by the Musical Ear Syndrome can open up and seek treatment. Hopefully, in the future researchers can find a better medication that will consistently and successfully cure the endless music marathon in the mind that people like Ella have suffered day in and day out.


Thursday, November 29, 2012

Numbers are constant.. Until they're not


‎"During cataclysmic global events, our collective consciousness synchronizes. So do the numeric sequences created by random number generators. Science can't explain the phenomenon, but religion does. It’s called prayer. A collective request, sent up in unison. A shared hope, fear relieved, a life spared. Numbers are constant … until they’re not. In times of tragedy … times of collective joy, in these brief moments, it is only this shared emotional experience that makes the world seem less random.

Maybe it’s coincidence. And maybe it’s the answer to our prayers."


~Jake Bohm from Touch



I don't know why but this quote is just perfect.

Friday, November 9, 2012

It's Crunch Time


"We have to do the best we can. This is our sacred human responsibility." - Albert Einstein

I saw this sheet of paper on a door the other day. I just wanted to tear it all off. I really had a rough start at the beginning of the semester. The person right now writing this if completely different from the person who moved into Chapel Hill at the beginning of the year. Right now, I feel more confident and my grades are improving which is GREAT. I was so worried whether I could settle into this little college town because outside of this place is a whole different story. I have to be careful though because sometimes my old self will come back. The old me where I felt like I was a turtle hiding in a shell but I have to remind myself that hiding in a shell won't lead me anywhere.

My English class is okay, despite the fact I have a very chill but tough grading professor. Hist 51 is very interesting. It's about Latin American Rebellions and Revolutions. It's shown me a new perspective in a part of the world that I didn't even know about and made me reconsider the political decisions of the United States. It's a discussion based class with 3 midterm papers. So sometimes the discussion part is tough for me. It takes me a while to analyze plus I'm not planning to become a history major in any sort of fashion. I'm trying to speak up more though. My Chemistry class has been a roller coaster. I basically bombed the first midterm, so I changed everything I was doing. I dropped my music theory class because I felt so uncomfortable in the class to the point where the people in the class annoyed me so much that I just threw my hands (mentally) in the air saying it wasn't for me. I was doing fine in the class but I had this gut instinct that it just wasn't for me. I was kind of depressed though dropping it because I had this plan to major in music and apply to medical school but it just wasn't meant to be. I knew I had taken the right path when I actually didn't fail my Chem midterm test and was higher than the class average. It's interesting how excited I am when I realize that I scored above class average.  I've also been taking an exercise class Ultimate Frisbee which has been fun but I'm about over it now and Symphonic Band which has been great but I don't think I'll take it again next semester. A one credit class that takes up 2 hours of my day seems to be too much.

I have one more midterm before Thanksgiving and I can't wait for that! (Even though I'll just be doing more work.) Despite my struggles I can definitely say I'm proud to be a Tarheel Born, Tarheel Bred. Oh and GO TO HELL DUKE!

Thursday, September 27, 2012

Study Songs







I know it’s hard to remember the people we used to be.
I’ve had to learn what I’ve got, what I’m not and who I am.
See, I’m a new soul, I came to this strange world.
Yeah I’m living that Hill life, living without any strife.
And it feels so amazing, can’t see it coming and we’ll never grow old again.
And this old world is a new world for me. 

I loved how the songs I listen to while I do my homework basically describe my experience so far at UNC. So, these are my top study songs in the order of the medley I created.

1) Payphone by Maroon 5 featuring Wiz Khalifa

A perfect song when I'm working on a tough chemistry problem and it feels like "all of my bridges burned down."

2) I Won't Give Up by Jason Mraz

A mediating song that is wonderful to listen to while reading about the Mexican revolutions of the early 1900's.

3) New Soul by Yael Naim

A lovely song with a piano accompaniment that is nice to listen to when I'm researching articles about music hallucinations (which are quite fascinating!)

4) Carolina State of Mind by The Tarpeggios

This song sung by a talented a capella group at UNC really puts you in that TarHeel Spirit when your listening to it outside especially while studying in the middle of the quad.

5) Chasing the Sun by The Wanted

It can be quite a repetitive song but its catchy beat helps you focus when your writing a paper for an English class.

6) Feeling Good by Nina Simone

This is an authentic bluesy tune perfect for working on a lab report. When you finish that report you are surely feeling good.

So, any other songs I should listen to while studying?

Final Note: I have been so blessed to be working with Five Star® over the last few months. It's been an amazing experience. If you're reading this please take the time and check out the program at www.tinyurl.com/FSTeam. The other people on the Ambassador program I've worked with are truly amazing people and I am SO glad they have been in my life. Even though we may be across the country, we all share this special bond for sharing our love of Five Star® products. Although, it may be the end I think this quote from Dr. Seuss sums it up “Don’t cry because it’s over, SMILE because it happened.”

Thursday, September 20, 2012

Messy Desks, Creativity, and Intellect

I'm a Five Star® Ambassador. See me at www.tinyurl.com/FSTeam

“If a cluttered desk signs a cluttered mind, of what, then is an empty desk a sign?”  
~Albert Einstein

The fact that I’m typing this right now either means one of two things. I’m procrastinating for writing a paper that is due in a week or I’ve actually found some free time to not think about chemistry, musical dictation, Latin American independence, or AMA citations.

I’ve been in college for about 4 weeks now. As seen from my last post, it’s obvious that my college studies have taken over my life. Seriously, the only reason I’m able to type this now is because I had a chemistry test on Friday. Therefore, the professor did not assign Mastering Chemistry for the weekend (which has consumed at least 3-4 hours of my day each weekend).

College classes can be tough. It really can be. I do remind myself though that everyday that this is what I was looking for when I applied for all those colleges. I was looking for a challenge. I was looking for a campus driven with passion. I was looking for a student body where everyone was not seeking to be the most popular but instead have a great intellectual factor that would inspire me to ask questions and require me to step out of my comfort zone. Thankfully, so far, Carolina has lived up to my expectations.

So, as my desk clutters up with historical documents, dimensional analysis problems, and music bar line paper, I always continue to appreciate the fact that I was accepted to this amazing place where there are so many other students with messy desks, creativity, and intellect.



Friday, August 24, 2012

How to Feel Less Overwhelmed on the First Week of Classes


“I’m a Tarheel born, I’m a Tarheel Bred. And when I die I’m a Tarheel Dead”
 ~UNC Alma Mater

 I recently experienced UNC's FDOC. The First Day of Classes! I moved in on Friday and settled into my dorm and now I’m here! I’ve been busy readjusting to a new schedule, trying not to fall of my lofted bed, and walking everywhere (at least my dorm is in a good location). Along with classes starting this week, the college has an event called Week of Welcome (WOW) where first years can learn everything about UNC from myriads of organizations, tours of different buildings, and more. Basically, it means I get a lot of free stuff.

So, I was hooked to attend all these events hosted by UNC until I realized I had to find a way to keep track of everything I was doing, prepare for an ensemble audition, start assignments, and find a way to find time to eat! So, I took out my Five Star® 2012-2013 planner, which basically decreased the overwhelming feelings inside. I was able to plan the rest of my days for the week. There I was able to write all my assignments, club meetings, and important events. Therefore, I could see right away what I could or could not do. It even has a perforated corner tab that you can tear out so you can easily turn to the page of the week unlike other planners that have that bookmark that always seems to either damage or never fit in the spiral binding.

UNC has been so exciting! I have lots of reading and papers all ready to do. Also, There has been plenty of practicing with my saxophone. I’m still working as a Five Star Ambassador at www.tinyurl.com/FSTeam which has been really fun as well. For all your organized needs, Five Star® is the way to go!